Life in Wonderland: It is worth it!

I've never had to be more careful with my choice of words. I've hand written pages of blogs and started to comment on Facebook statuses only to not publish them because I don't want to unintentionally hurt anyone.  I look forward to those events where I feel like I can breathe with out something jumping out of my mouth that may sting someone I barely know or even worse, someone I care deeply for.

Sometimes when I talk to people about events relating to the build up I get responses like, "that sounds depressing."  Maybe it does sound depressing, but honestly I haven't felt depressed at any of these events.  Even when there are few people in attendance, I leave feeling better than I did reading the headlines the day before.

While the circumstance that is bringing us together may seem cruel and disheartening, the fact that we are gathering against it is empowering. What would be truly depressing is if no one cared.  If no one felt it was worth the discomfort and struggle that would be depressing.

In the beginning I thought about if it would be easier to go on like nothing was happening.  Sometimes I do step back and spend a few days away from articles and conversations regarding the build up, but it still looms over me like this shadow I can't out run.  I realized I want to be a part of the shadow over the build up and the best way to do that is to stay informed and active.