I've never had to be more careful with my choice of words. I've hand written pages of blogs and started to comment on Facebook statuses only to not publish them because I don't want to unintentionally hurt anyone. I look forward to those events where I feel like I can breathe with out something jumping out of my mouth that may sting someone I barely know or even worse, someone I care deeply for.
Sometimes when I talk to people about events relating to the build up I get responses like, "that sounds depressing." Maybe it does sound depressing, but honestly I haven't felt depressed at any of these events. Even when there are few people in attendance, I leave feeling better than I did reading the headlines the day before.
While the circumstance that is bringing us together may seem cruel and disheartening, the fact that we are gathering against it is empowering. What would be truly depressing is if no one cared. If no one felt it was worth the discomfort and struggle that would be depressing.
In the beginning I thought about if it would be easier to go on like nothing was happening. Sometimes I do step back and spend a few days away from articles and conversations regarding the build up, but it still looms over me like this shadow I can't out run. I realized I want to be a part of the shadow over the build up and the best way to do that is to stay informed and active.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Life in Wonderland: Come together
When I start to feel sad or scared about the future of our island I like to watch videos posted on You Tube of our community coming together. It always makes me feel better.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Life in Wonderland: energy crisis
I'm trying to process everything and figure out the best way to spend my energy with out getting burnt out.
I'd really like to become more educated on my island's history prior to colonization. I'd like to learn more of the language. I want to spend more time appreciating the beauty of our island and maybe that will replenish my passion.
This evening Allan and I attended a public hearing on a local legislative resolution in support of the Declaration of the Rights of Indigenous People. We were late, but managed to make it in when the last panel of speakers started. I'm glad we did. I enjoyed hearing the testimonies and we were able to get a copy of the resolution. We also got to hang out with some friends afterwards. It was a positive evening and I'm hoping to spend the rest of the week enjoying more positive moments.
In light of my whole energy budgeting and positivity trip I'd like to spend the month September sharing positive energy experiences with my blog readers. So expect happy stories from my childhood and lots of pictures of my island home. I'm hoping to have a beach day and maybe even go on a hike.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Community in Wonderland: Getting more involved and making friends
I took this picture at the Agat Night Market. I was there on Tuesday passing out fliers for the community action We Are Guahan is organizing for tomorrow. I had a lot of fun doing the outreach. My friend Colleen and I made 2 new friends. Erica and Tina actually live in California, but came out here to help for a bit. Isn't that amazing? Aside from making new friends we were at such a beautiful location. Just look at those flowers and that sky. We were right by the ocean too and got to watch the sunset. Colleen and I were a little nervous at first about talking to strangers about such a touchy subject, but once we got started it was easy. Some people were really in to it. One family was asking questions and sharing information with us. They even let us leave some fliers with them. Some people were polite, but just not that interested. One family just said no when we offered them a flier. But most people at least pretended to be interested.
Last night was another good night. Another Guahan blogger, Desiree, from The Drowning Mermaid, hosted a sign making party. I got off at 7 and Colleen and I headed over there shortly after. I had a lot of fun. It's nice being in a fun environment, but still at the same time getting work done. Kisha, another new friend, and I made latte stone signs as we talked about the history of colonialism in the Pacific and it's impacts to the health of islanders. When Colleen and I left around 10 the other girls were still working hard. I can't wait to post pictures of the signs that were made.
As emotional and busy as this week was, it was worth it. I hope a lot of people show up tomorrow, but either way I already feel better about the future of our island. Just knowing and physically feeling that I'm not alone, in the emotions and frustrations and dreams that I have in dealing with the build up and all the other issues of my home, give me hope. So to all my sisters, in this struggle, whether I met you years ago or just this week, I'd like to say thank you.
Last night was another good night. Another Guahan blogger, Desiree, from The Drowning Mermaid, hosted a sign making party. I got off at 7 and Colleen and I headed over there shortly after. I had a lot of fun. It's nice being in a fun environment, but still at the same time getting work done. Kisha, another new friend, and I made latte stone signs as we talked about the history of colonialism in the Pacific and it's impacts to the health of islanders. When Colleen and I left around 10 the other girls were still working hard. I can't wait to post pictures of the signs that were made.
As emotional and busy as this week was, it was worth it. I hope a lot of people show up tomorrow, but either way I already feel better about the future of our island. Just knowing and physically feeling that I'm not alone, in the emotions and frustrations and dreams that I have in dealing with the build up and all the other issues of my home, give me hope. So to all my sisters, in this struggle, whether I met you years ago or just this week, I'd like to say thank you.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Community in Wonderland: Shared info
This is from a link that was shared on Facebook. This is absolutely disgusting. The military occupies 31.14% of Guam, an unincorporated territory. The state that comes closest to us is California and the military only occupies 3.83% of the state.
Percent of Land Occupied by the U.S. Military on Guam is Much Higher than Elsewhere in the U.S.
24 July, 2010 - 11:42 — aubreymoore
Everyone on Guam knows that the U.S. Department of Defense (DoD) occupies about one-third of the island and DoD is demanding additional land in the Pagat area on which to build a new firing range.
After yesterday's public meeting on the Final Environmental Impact Statement for the proposed Guam military buildup, I was asked how the military footprint on Guam compares to that for other places, such as Hawaii. As you can see from the following table, the proportion of land occupied by the military on Guam is much higher than elsewhere in the U.S.
| State or Territory | Total Area (sq. miles) | Area Occupied by DoD (sq. miles) | Proportion of Total Area Occupied by DoD |
|---|---|---|---|
| Guam | 209 | 65.08 | 31.14% |
| Northern Mariana Islands | 184 | 24.59 | 13.35% |
| California | 163,696 | 6,270.13 | 3.83% |
| Hawaii | 10,931 | 373.31 | 3.42% |
| Florida | 65,795 | 1,078.86 | 1.64% |
| Maryland | 12,407 | 171.64 | 1.38% |
| Puerto Rico | 3,515 | 41.35 | 1.18% |
| Alaska | 663,268 | 2,861.49 | 0.43% |
| Rhode Island | 1,214 | 4.72 | 0.39% |
| Delaware | 2,490 | 6.62 | 0.27% |
| American Samoa | 77 | 0.17 | 0.22% |
Data Sources
- Total Area - Wikipedia
- Area Occupied by DoD - Department of Defense Base Structure Report; Fiscal Year 2009 Baseline (A Summary of DoD's Real Prpoerty Inventory). Table Viii. Total DOD Inventory. Data were taken from the column headed "Total Acres". This includes land owned or leased by DoD.
Community in Wonderland: Some appreciated help for Pagat
Law firm to review final EIS, protect Pagat area | guampdn.com | Pacific Daily News
Local and national historic preservation groups have retained the services of a mainland law firm to ensure the military follows the required environmental process if it creates a new firing range in the PÃ¥gat area of Mangilao.
The Guam Preservation Trust and the National Trust for Historic Preservation have retained the law firm of Sonnenschein Nath & Rosenthal LLP, according to a written statement from the Guam trust.
The military plans to build a firing range close to the PÃ¥gat area, which contains the remnants of an ancient Chamorro village and a cave filled with fresh water. The military has stated the area won't be damaged by gunfire and the public will not lose access to the cave completely.
The Guam Preservation Trust is a nonprofit Guam public corporation with the goal of preserving Guam's culture and historic sites. The National Trust, which was created by Congress, earlier this year placed PÃ¥gat village on its annual list of the nation's 11 most endangered places.
Joe Quinata, chief program officer for the Guam Preservation Trust, yesterday said the law firm, which is working for free, is very experienced in the National Environmental Policy Act process and will review the final environmental impact statement for the Guam buildup, which is scheduled to be made public later this week, although the military has said the plans for the firing range remain unchanged.
The federal environmental law requires the federal government to take into account the environmental impact of its proposed actions and to consider reasonable alternatives to those actions.
There will be legal action if necessary, Quinata said.
Quinata said the law firm's involvement is being announced, in part, to let the community know "there is still some hope" for preservation of the PÃ¥gat site.
More details about the law firm and its role are scheduled to be discussed during a press conference 11 a.m. today at the governor's complex at Adelup.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Community in Wonderland: More on the Pagat rally
According to the email I received from We Are Guahan, there was over 300 people at Pagat last Friday. For a usually complacent community that is a good turn out for a protest. Considering it was a week day and it was also extremely hot, I wasn't expecting there to be that many people. I was a little worried that not enough people would show up. Thankfully I was wrong. This sends a great message to the visiting officials, our leaders, and the rest of our community. I was really glad that I was able to attend. This is history in the making and thankfully we had some documentary film makers at the event.
Speaking of film, here are some videos I found on You Tube.
We Are Guahan did a great job organizing the event. They had volunteers shuttle people from the parking area at the Guam Raceway Park to the trail head through out the event. They had ice cold water being handed out by volunteers. They led chants that even I was yelling along to. I don't usually raise my voice for any reason, but it felt good. It released a lot of frustration in a healthy way.
And the police did a great job too. You'd think they would be intimidating during a protest, but they just made sure that everything was safe. We were lining a road during a busy time and they made sue the motorists slowed down when approaching the area. Someone actually sped through and was stopped by the cops.
As great as the community action event turned out to be, I'm sure there is more work to be done. I think one of the most important things is awareness and commitment. We need to make as many people as possible aware of what is happening on Guam. They need to know that the people of Guahan are still being treated like second class citizens by the U.S., a country that has become the world police. Who will police them??? And we need to be committed to spreading awareness and not letting them push us around anymore.
Speaking of film, here are some videos I found on You Tube.
We Are Guahan did a great job organizing the event. They had volunteers shuttle people from the parking area at the Guam Raceway Park to the trail head through out the event. They had ice cold water being handed out by volunteers. They led chants that even I was yelling along to. I don't usually raise my voice for any reason, but it felt good. It released a lot of frustration in a healthy way.
And the police did a great job too. You'd think they would be intimidating during a protest, but they just made sure that everything was safe. We were lining a road during a busy time and they made sue the motorists slowed down when approaching the area. Someone actually sped through and was stopped by the cops.
As great as the community action event turned out to be, I'm sure there is more work to be done. I think one of the most important things is awareness and commitment. We need to make as many people as possible aware of what is happening on Guam. They need to know that the people of Guahan are still being treated like second class citizens by the U.S., a country that has become the world police. Who will police them??? And we need to be committed to spreading awareness and not letting them push us around anymore.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Community in Wonderland: Biba Pagat!
I'm so exhausted. I had to work at 7 a.m. this morning and shortly after getting off I went with my parents to Pagat. The sun was blazing, but it was the intensity of the situation that really set us on fire. How did we allow it to get this far? What kind of world are we living in where the beacon of democracy is about to take one of the nation's 11 most endangered historical sites and use it as a firing range? This is so unthinkable, I can't even believe that we have to protest to protect Pagat.
Here is some media coverage on it:
I'm off to get some rest. I have to work at 7 again tomorrow. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to put down in words what I'm feeling and also more details and links about the community action that took place today.
Before I forget, thank you! Thank you to everyone who made it out and thank you to those who couldn't, but still have Pagat in their hearts and thoughts. And a big thank you to all the volunteers and the police officers.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Community in Wonderland: Liberate Pagat!
Today is the day we celebrate Guam's liberation from the Japanese. As a child, my grandmother would have our mothers get all of us together. We'd go to the parade and watch as all the amazing floats rolled by. The floats are always really amazing. It was so much fun for us kids, but for my Grandma it was deeper than just candy, music, and floats. When she was our age they weren't marching in parades. The marching they did was different. My grandma is gone now, but I still respect today as her day. I see today more as a memorial day for those who lived through and those who lost their lives, during the occupation and ending it.
Instead of going to the parade or even watching it on t.v., I decided to stay home and make posters for the rally on Friday. We will be lining route 15 to show the military officials and the CEQ that we care about Pagat. And really, it isn't just the ancient village that is being affected. There are families who will be asked to give up their land. The Raceway Park, that has helped to keep our roads safe from illegal drag racing, will have to relocate. How long will it take for them to rebuild? There is also an endangered species of Butterflies, the Marianas 8 Spot Butterfly, that calls Pagat home. And then there is the noise pollution and environmental problems that the firing range can cause. Not to mention, the military already has 1/3 of the island. What will be left for us when they're done? Will they ever be done?


Instead of going to the parade or even watching it on t.v., I decided to stay home and make posters for the rally on Friday. We will be lining route 15 to show the military officials and the CEQ that we care about Pagat. And really, it isn't just the ancient village that is being affected. There are families who will be asked to give up their land. The Raceway Park, that has helped to keep our roads safe from illegal drag racing, will have to relocate. How long will it take for them to rebuild? There is also an endangered species of Butterflies, the Marianas 8 Spot Butterfly, that calls Pagat home. And then there is the noise pollution and environmental problems that the firing range can cause. Not to mention, the military already has 1/3 of the island. What will be left for us when they're done? Will they ever be done?
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Community in Wonderland: climate change and the military build up
Last night Nella and I watched The Age of Stupid. And it made me think that climate change is like the military build up on Guam. Just because you think it is inevitable doesn't mean you shouldn't do what you can to make things better. We should at least try to make our island, and the world, as pleasant as possible for future generations. It's almost selfish not to try.
"Won't be asked to do my share when I'm gone ... Can't be singing louder than the guns when I'm gone ... Can't add my name into the fight while I'm gone ... Can't live proud enough to die when I'm gone - So I guess I'll have to do it while I'm here" -Phil Ochs
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Community in Wonderland: Update on the briefing
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Briefings held on USMC's training/firing ranges - KUAM.com-
Briefings held on USMC's training/firing ranges - KUAM.com-
by Nick Delgado
Guam - With the release of the final environmental impact statement just around the corner, it seems there's still some confusion as to where the military plans to construct a firing range to accommodate the Marines' training. During a teleconference lawmakers as well as others in the community voiced their concerns, as they feel that they might not have a say when the military does decide just where that site might be.
There were two meetings held today for elected leaders and stakeholders to learn more about what went into deciding the preferred training ranges needed for the Marines. The first was held at one am this morning via teleconference; while the other was held just before lunch time via videoconference between the Joint Guam Program Office and the White House Council on Environmental Quality.
The event was facilitated by Guam Congressional Delegate Madeline Bordallo's office, but we were denied access.
Although we were turned away, KUAM News was able to sit-in on the teleconference held at 1am Tuesday this where senators gathered to listen to a presentation made an ocean away in the nation's capitol. The purpose of the teleconference was to allow the JGPO and the U.S. Marines Corps the opportunity to present to the CEQ how they went about selecting the proposed sites and preferred alternatives for the firing and training ranges needed for the relocation of Marines from Okinawa to Guam.
JGPO Executive Director David Bice said that the process in selecting property for a Marine firing range came under the direct guidance of the Department of Defense to maximize federal property on Guam, as well as consider the safety of those using the range along with the surrounding community. Bice says JGPO ruled out a number of proposed sites due to the size, including Navy Barrigada, Apra Heights, Drydock Island, Mt. Santa Rosa, Naval Hospital, and Potts Junction. Other areas ruled out due to incompatibility for surrounding areas include Andersen Air Force Base, Northwest Field, Andersen South, Tarague Beach, Orote Point, and Naval Magazine.
We Are Guahan representative Leevin Camacho was at briefing at the delegate's office this morning, and said, "One of the reasons why they got rid of the other options is because of anticipated public concern, we're all here and Pagat has been such a tough issue because the public is concerned." And Pagat was the biggest part of the discussion, as the military has deemed the preferred site a good location for Marine training.
Marine Corps Head of Range Development Tom Shear explained the types of ammunition the Corps will be using, which includes several training rounds that emit an orange powder in an effort to prevent any fire hazards. He adds that there will be no damage to the lusongs or lattes on the historic site if it is selected.
Lawmakers raised several concerns about the use of the Pagat land and questioned why Resolution 275 that states no action on Pagat be taken seems to have fallen on deaf ears.
"It's a dog and pony show for me," summarized speaker of the 30th Guam Legislature Judi Won Pat. "They gave us papers to follow through but no matter what we said if this was the preferred site, why don't they just come right out and say this is it, stop dragging us through all this and say it's notional, tell us and stop it right now and let's start talking then."
Said Shear in response, "If it wasn't made clear earlier we were trying to make it clear that the no action alternative or not using these training ranges is one of the options at the end of the day, when the decision has to be made in the record of decision that will follow the final environmental impact statement, so the consideration of not going to these training ranges is on the table. The object of this briefing was to describe what actions could be considered should the decision go forward with the relocation of Guam. So that's why we tried to emphasize throughout this briefing that these things were notional."
Vice-Speaker B.J. Cruz expressed disappointment about the lack of notice on the briefing, as he feels the military's notion of Pagat is misleading. Senator Frank Blas, Jr. also questioned what the military plans to do if the preferred site in Pagat does not work out. However, the feds reacted to most of the concerns by stating that nothing is official, and that most of the details will become clearer in the final EIS. The military also admits that the final EIS would explain why other areas like Tinian were not selected to host a firing range.
The feds also mentioned a range management plan that would keep the public informed of the training activity, as well as let the community know when they can visit the site. However, more concerns were raised by the a representative from Fuetsan Famala'oan's Lisa Cipollone, who asked National Historic Preservation Trust officials how they felt about Pagat being considered as it was recently designated as one of America's 11 most endangered historic sites.
In the meantime, participants like Department of Agriculture's Tino Aguon feels the briefing only led to more unanswered questions from the feds, saying, "I believe there are more questions that came out of this. And so we look forward to seeing future discussions and how this will impact."
Military Buildup Chair Senator Judi Guthertz also expressed frustration, stating that those providing the briefing deflected pointed questions about Pagat's range plans. Guthertz says she was not satisfied when she asked how the military plans to get the land, and Bice stated, "negotiate". Likewise, some felt that the two-hour briefing did not allow them enough time to have their concerns addressed, such as Senator Tina Muna Barnes, who feels the feds think that the people of Guam are, in her words, "third-class citizens".
1 a.m. in Wonderland: Uninvited
This morning I received an email about a meeting that will be taking place in D.C. discussing the dreaded Final E.I.S, regarding the military build up on Guam. As I looked in to it more I realized that the initial media reports made it out to be a public meeting, that residents could join through a conference call at 1 a.m., but it now seems that it is only actually open to those invited . They will be discussing why the location chosen as the preferred alternative for the firing range is so ideal. The preferred location is our historical Pagat area which seems like the most unideal area for a firing range since it is an ancient village. It's hard to imagine people, across so many miles, discussing how our ancestors' resting place is the perfect place for the military to use as a firing range. It's hard not to close your eyes and see spirits waking to the deafening sounds of machine guns going off. I wonder what our ancestors would say to the people at that gathering, if they were invited.
When we went to Pagat, on January 1 this year, I was hoping for something. I was hoping for hope. I wanted the experience to erase my fears and I wanted to walk out of that jungle knowing it was safe and would always be there for me, when I needed my spirits lifted. As I stood at the edge of the cliffs with the beautiful ocean ocean in front of me and that comforting jungle behind me I was just mad that anyone could even consider taking that moment and making it loud and ugly. And I felt so incredibly sad knowing that if it happens it will be our fault. So off we went to the meetings armed with signs and my shirt with a picture of Pagat printed on it.
Now I'm just wondering if all that time spent reading that insane document and trying to write intelligent comments, all that time feeling intimidated and disheartened at those meetings was where I should have focused my energy? After all, it seems like it was all just a formality for them. Sometimes I think I should have ran in to Pagat and just woke my ancestors myself, to warn them about what is to come and to apologize for all I can't do or say. I want some miracle ending straight out of a blockbuster hit, where all the living things on the land and in the ocean join us in saying "NO!, this stops here." It sounds silly, but so does the idea of a man walking on water.
some links I've gathered for your further reading
When we went to Pagat, on January 1 this year, I was hoping for something. I was hoping for hope. I wanted the experience to erase my fears and I wanted to walk out of that jungle knowing it was safe and would always be there for me, when I needed my spirits lifted. As I stood at the edge of the cliffs with the beautiful ocean ocean in front of me and that comforting jungle behind me I was just mad that anyone could even consider taking that moment and making it loud and ugly. And I felt so incredibly sad knowing that if it happens it will be our fault. So off we went to the meetings armed with signs and my shirt with a picture of Pagat printed on it.
Now I'm just wondering if all that time spent reading that insane document and trying to write intelligent comments, all that time feeling intimidated and disheartened at those meetings was where I should have focused my energy? After all, it seems like it was all just a formality for them. Sometimes I think I should have ran in to Pagat and just woke my ancestors myself, to warn them about what is to come and to apologize for all I can't do or say. I want some miracle ending straight out of a blockbuster hit, where all the living things on the land and in the ocean join us in saying "NO!, this stops here." It sounds silly, but so does the idea of a man walking on water.
some links I've gathered for your further reading
FEIS briefing set in D.C. - M.V.
We are Guahan prepares for release of FEIS - PDN
Col Jackson with Ray Gibson - PNC (radio interview)
Col Jackson with Ray Gibson - PNC (radio interview)
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