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Sunday, September 26, 2010

Life in Wonderland: It is worth it!

I've never had to be more careful with my choice of words. I've hand written pages of blogs and started to comment on Facebook statuses only to not publish them because I don't want to unintentionally hurt anyone.  I look forward to those events where I feel like I can breathe with out something jumping out of my mouth that may sting someone I barely know or even worse, someone I care deeply for.

Sometimes when I talk to people about events relating to the build up I get responses like, "that sounds depressing."  Maybe it does sound depressing, but honestly I haven't felt depressed at any of these events.  Even when there are few people in attendance, I leave feeling better than I did reading the headlines the day before.

While the circumstance that is bringing us together may seem cruel and disheartening, the fact that we are gathering against it is empowering. What would be truly depressing is if no one cared.  If no one felt it was worth the discomfort and struggle that would be depressing.

In the beginning I thought about if it would be easier to go on like nothing was happening.  Sometimes I do step back and spend a few days away from articles and conversations regarding the build up, but it still looms over me like this shadow I can't out run.  I realized I want to be a part of the shadow over the build up and the best way to do that is to stay informed and active.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Life in Wonderland: Come together

When I start to feel sad or scared about the future of our island I like to watch videos posted on You Tube of our community coming together.  It always makes me feel better.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Life in Wonderland: energy crisis

I've been absent from my blog for some time now.  I've been busy with work and I just got over a cold.  I'm also running out of things to say at the moment.  I'm feeling a little numb to all that is happening around me.  It feels kind of like while we're all stuck in this crazy traffic that big fish is circling our island. It's getting ready to take out some more big chunks of land and displace families.

I'm trying to process everything and figure out the best way to spend my energy with out getting burnt out.

I'd really like to become more educated on my island's history prior to colonization. I'd like to learn more of the language.  I want to spend more time appreciating the beauty of our island and maybe that will replenish my passion.

This evening Allan and I attended a public hearing on a local legislative resolution in support of the Declaration of the Rights of Indigenous People.  We were late, but managed to make it in when the last panel of speakers started.   I'm glad we did.  I enjoyed hearing the testimonies and we were able to get a copy of the resolution.    We also got to hang out with some friends afterwards.  It was a positive evening and I'm hoping to spend the rest of the week enjoying more positive moments.

In light of my whole energy budgeting and positivity trip I'd like to spend the month September sharing positive energy experiences with my blog readers.  So expect happy stories from my childhood and lots of pictures of my island home.  I'm hoping to have a beach day and maybe even go on a hike.